Internship is ending soon, in exactly 28 Days. Counting down to the official day. But before that, i've got tons of work to do, it seems like its never ending, only pilling and pilling. Problems just keeps coming in one after another.

And sometimes i just wish to see him, even for just a while because it just makes me feel better just seeing him. But well, i need to overcome my own fear, my own 'Confidence' problem. Well, been given the role as a platoon commander for Junior NCO course, leading not just your own corp but other corps as well, simply is a big role for me. But of course, its really a role i've never tried out before, never. And, really, i HATE and really can't do plannings. I swear i've developed a phobia for planning. What if my camp fails, not only will it be ineffective, its a total waste of time, how will people look at me in the future.

But i'm really thankful to have my seniors to really help me, i can see that they're really willing to help me, but now, basically i've got to pick myself up first, recollect myself because i've got people under me, i need to guide them and if i'm lost, what will happen to them, even my DY Platoon commander is very new to her role. So, even if i'm not a good planner, i've still got to do what i need to. That's what i thought, but i'm afraid she'll stressed out because i've never worked with her before, and she's very new to this.

Sigh. And, i've haven't settled my own corps problem, i barely have the time to go back down to my corps. Haven't seen my kids for a long while, i'm feeling real apologetic towards my fellow officers who really done a lot for the corps. There's bound to be unhappiness but i can only do what i can. Internship isn't something i can control.

I just have to make sure i don't burn out. Its been long since i last met my friends. I need a hug, badly.







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