I'm drained. Drained from work everyday, drained.. from worrying too much. Friends, family who thinks i'm neglecting them. The ones i thought, will be the ones who could understand how tired i am after work. because of all these, my temper have been getting bad, i get pissed off easily, i just feel like shutting myself up. i can't pleased everyone. I'm trying my best to. How do you feel, when you're being forced to do something you don't want to, sometimes you're really tired but you still go out with your friends when they ask you to. Why? because you want them to be happy.

Its not that i don't want to go, i just don't have so much time to think of so much, except to focus on work. Why, put me at such a difficult spot? I wish i can spend time equally with all, but its difficult to. I talk, but no actions were being put in. because i thought, i could spend my time more once my intern ends, but things don't seem to be that way.

Its becoming more to fearing rather than wanting. I'm tired. Don't force me anymore.

Everyday, is getting harder to bear. Loneliness kills.



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