Contradictions. Is it my thoughts, or it is true, that things are simply getting out of hand. Mum's health, have deteriorate. When she told me she have high blood pressure, you don't know how my heart stopped. This is how much i think.

I shouldn't think so much, because i know she'll be fine. (That's what i tell myself all the time). Dad too. I can't afford to lose anything precious. Yes, i'm that fragile. Just take it as that. Apart from that, i've been thinking through about what my friend mention to me, i need to prioritize and think carefully. I know, i've been too 'Blur', too 'unreachable' at times. And, i've been trying to improve on that ever since i've heard that.

I don't know, if i'm still able to continue, because right now, its the people. They say, growing up, exposure to the realistic world is a will-go-through part of life. But its the part where many people just can't seem to handle. They say i'm naive, i choose to believe that the world is like this, that the people i make friends with, have only nice intentions, but recently, things that happened are making me doubt my belief.

It hurts me, too nice, taking things for granted? I'll let things be, because, in another month time, i'll be going for internship. Perhaps things may get worse by then, i can't predict, but we'll see. Step by step, i'll face it eventually.

All i wish for now, is to make sure i complete this semester well.  Trust me, i've never meant to hurt anyone. And i hope you won't too, because you really don't understand how it feels to be the one being hurt, until you become one.



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