Finally, i got my wish. Pictures with brother, a proper family photo. :D
That day was my best day. I get to step into a army camp, look around and see my brother POP. Plus, the happiness shown on my mum and dad's face.

Now, what's on my mind? I've been looked down my whole life, in someway or another. Everyone have. Sometimes, yes, i agree i'm really lacking a lot compared to the rest. I'm a slow learner, i have problems with   doing things on my own sometimes, and i don't know why too. And somehow, i'm thankful that i have two friends to help me with the planning. And i don't count myself as a senior to them, but instead i take them as a model i can learn from too. Their comments help me to improve, yes, may be harsh to me at times, but its helpful. That applies to life, taking people's comments, advice and improve from there. No complaints. But i'm thankful that they actually have faith in me. However, the stress i'm feeling comes from them, because i'm always concerned, whether what i did, is really the best, is my decision the best, and whether, is it even being taken into consideration.

Yes, they're better than me. I know. But i'm trying. The only thing i know i can give, is my very best, my passion. I'm glad, thankful, that charlene is there, when i have problems in this, i'm able to seek for her help. Without her, i guess, i might have left long ago. Because, i don't have anyone i can really seek help from within ourselves. They're leaving, slowly. And that's gonna change a lot of things. They've been there since i first stepped in, till now. They're a great support to me. I can't do a lot of things, when my confidence is so low. And i can barely raise my head. Pushing on...

School's starting on 17th April. IIP startes from 23 September 2013 to 7 March 2014. Oh dear. May school be fun and enjoyable for the final semester of my RP life. And may my friends push on in IIP, its tough, and i hope their health will recover. I miss my friends. My ZZs, My girls, my friends evaz, dee dee.

The difference when they go work. is time tend to get lesser and lesser.
Well, Love life is so far not a concern for me. I think this is the last on my priority list.

No matter what, you've done your best, being yourself, pick yourself up and move on even when there's a lot of people out there who will push you down. That's what i'm gonna tell my younger sister, my children the next time. But first, i'll do it. Complain all you want, but make sure things are being done.



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