Smile...
Monday, August 20, 2012 | 12:03 AM | 0 hearts♥
Grandpa's funeral ended and yes, i wasn't there. This guilt will accompany me for the rest of my life. There's nothing else i can do to make myself feel any less guilty. Never mind, moving on, This little cute fellow, Rui, my Uncle's son who is just 4 months old have been bringing a lot of laughter to the family, the house have gotten so much fun and nicer. But, well, he won't be staying long, leaving tomorrow to go back to the states. Like what his father said, "he's a american boy". LOL. He has two elder sister, of a different mother.
His 2 elder sister, i've never seen them face to face.
I love this picture, because he's looking right at the camera.
He's smiling down here.
I'm really gonna miss him so so much. Bring joy everywhere he goes. The next time i see him, i'll be seeing him running around the house.And he won't recognise me at all.
So, UT3 starts on 27th August, which is like so near. And i couldn't study these few days because, Rui keeps crying when i just start to get focused in my work. And of course, i have to do all the stuffs, change diaper and all. Gosh, i've never done all those in my life.
I'm hoping UT3 will pass smoothly and then Perth trip, Fuze camp.. Not sure why, but i've been feeling so stuffed up, its like i have so much trapped inside, and i can't tell anyone because, i don't even know what's making me feel so horrible. Gonna stay like this till after UT3 and i'll go exercise, sports, all these makes me forget all. Shiokness.
SJAB haven't been having training for quite a while already, and being frank, i lost my initial motivation to come back. Why, i guess if everyone thinks carefully, they'll know why. Corp, work together, communicate, isn't it? And everyone is opened up to one another, no drawing any lines between each other, despite different seniority, yes, seniority does matter, but if everyone thinks that way, we'll all keep to ourselves. I've never voiced this out, because i was hoping for something to change, and soon, i guess, something will happen. I rather everyone sees this and be frank to each other.
CUT.
Last lesson of the semester, is microeconomics which is on tuesday. Well, i'm gonna make some effort to dress nicer, not those real nice but just presentable clothes. Getting too lazy to dress up once you move on to higher level in the school.
Okay, i don't put my photos in order, but above are photos taken during the final lessons of each module. =)
See my beautiful and handsome friends. I'm gonna miss them. Will they? More of the photos on facebook!
Low self esteem is killer, when can i start getting more confident of myself...