I fail..
Saturday, April 2, 2011 | 9:04 PM | 0 hearts♥
(so small) But its memorable.
i still remember...clearly..hehe
(This is random) =)
I wish i could tell them, ALPHA, that i'm a failed instructor. I've never did anything helpful to sjab before. Its like i've never really contributed to sjab, being a follower. Instructors leave a impression to their cadets, juniors, good instructors gain respect. But not me, ALPHA are better , much better. They were promoted today,they had promotion parade, Charlie, i'm currently taking them, promoted too. But i couldn't be there, because of my course day. Charlie and Delta prepared cards and cake for ALPHA. See? This is how good they really are. Like Sir kenneth's platoon last time. They were all good instructors.
I admit, i'm jealous. Or should i say, envy... I guess the platoon i used to take.. They've forgot that i once took them.. That i'm a instructor too, i want the best for them. But they don't need me. At all.. Seeing them becoming instructor last time, i was proud, although i didn't do anything.. But i'm glad they're good instructors too. =) How i wish i could let them know what i'm thinking.. Ok, if they know, i'll be so shy like omg..
Let's cut that... So, course day 3 today at NHQ.Exhausted. Had footdrills, slow march as a whole course. COOL? Teammates was funny today. I really need to step out of my comfort zone. That's what i have to do. Cover myself up, its so annoying to try to be another person. Smile happily everyday and pretend nothing happened. Crap~ While having course, i was thinking about today, BIG DAY in evss, yet i'm in HQ. Came home and sis keep talking about what happened today. During training. I was ...idk, fustrated? So, i told her to keep quiet.
I'm thankful that i have nice seniors in sjab, nice juniors too. I think its just me who is having problem or maybe i'm the problem. Alpha... Hope to see you guys. ok? I want to see you guys back...Good luck for your studies!!! Ok, i'm being idiot here. No one is going to read my blog..=.= Now blog is the only safest place so far.. There's stalkers ...on fb, and what i write may spread and all officers will know the next day. Reading back what i just typed, wow...i'm shocked, i feel better cause i let out my emotions through words..
So, tomorrow is another tiring day. NFAC at HQ. Marshall...I want go out with friends..Before school starts...Memorable because..
They're the first platoon i take, the start of my instructor life..