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Call me selfish, whatever..
Monday, March 28, 2011 | 6:35 PM | 0 hearts♥


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No one never ever understands what i'm going through. What i'm trying my best to show, that i really love them, and i want to give my best. People say that i'm a bully, sister bully, scolding my sister for no reason. Ok, i accept that. But they always didn't see the part where my sister is rude to me, talking to me with no respect. And they only see when i start to scold her in front of my friends.

Like today, i was happily watching my videos, i admit i was laughing too loud, nothing would happen if she just tell me nicely that i'm disturbing her sleep, instead she came and said" oi, your laughter very irritating leh, make me cannot sleep" That totally spoiled my mood. Ok, i stared at her and told her" "What?! I laugh cause its funny cannot? you don't want me laugh is it? Ok, i shall do that then."

With that, i gulped down like half a bottle of water down my throat, to reduce my anger. Then, mum came home, saying that i shouldn't depend on my sister to pack food for me or my brother because her bag is heavy. I stared at her too. Because i could clearly remember when i was still in secondary school, My bag was heavy, affecting my shoulders, i was carrying another pile of thick books in my hands, she called me and said" help me pack food home for us, the whole family." At that time, i even had to call a friend to help me carry it home. It was too heavy. And that wasn't the only time, my sister only had to pack for either me or my brother. I had to pack for the whole family. Its like 5 or 6 packs of food. And i remembered one time , it was raining. I had no umbrella. And guess what my mum told me" Find a way to get home, buy a umbrella or something."

I heard it and kept quiet. I hanged up the phone. If i wrote more emotionally, it will be that, my breath stopped for like a few seconds, my eyes was like turning watery, my heart was feeling hollow? Yeah.. Understand that? Maybe that's just a small part of life , but it caused a huge impression on me. Heavy blow. I told my mum about how unfair she is and she kept quiet, totally speechless. That's like rare cause i seldom win in arguments. Now, i hate lunch time. My mum now ask me to go out and eat on my own. Who in the world likes to eat alone?! I hated it. I rather not eat.

Lets stop here. Gosh, makes me damn sad. Cried just now in my room. Sometimes, i just hate my sister. But i dote her. Its just that she never know why i buy things for her and when i really chose that thing for a long time just for her, she tells me this" eee, why you buy this? i don't like it already or you keep it yourself." Understand? I specially chose it for her and she tells me that she don't want it and throws( yes, THROW!) it back to me. Thats how fights occur. As for dad, he gets angry easily over little things like i'm bathing when he comes home from work and he start yelling" who's that bastard bathing, work so hard for this stupid house and then can't even bathe when i get home?" I just open the door, give a stare and walk back to my room.

Cause i know, opening my mouth and say something won't work.






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