What is right, what is wrong?
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 | 10:20 PM | 0 hearts♥
I don't mind if i receive a fail from my mentors, cause i know i did my best and if i fail, they have a reason for that. And that means the problem lies in me. If i did my best, my mentors should be able to see it and understand. But after going through all of it, if i still fail, i'm speechless, i surrender.
So, was telling mum about my request of having an MP3, and she told me to just use my handphone. zz Fine. haha. Went to gym at tampines stadium with deedee. =) I love it. Shall go again if there's chance. After that went to meet my mum. Thank you dee dee. treating me KOI.
Everytime i plan to go out with friends to watch movie or go out, there's always things popping out, causing the whole thing to be cancelled. And i hated that, really, its either friend working, friend busy, or friend just purely lazy and find a excuse to try to get rid of me. That pisses me off. And then when i nvr ask that friend out, complains and thing is my fault. I'm trying to coordinate with everyone but there's someone who sure want everyone to follow what he/she wants.
Okay, lets not talk bout that. Even after all that, i still know, they're my friends, true friends forgive and forget. Trust my friends, know that whatever they do, they have their reasons. While at the gym running, i was thinking, a lot.. Money problem, how to make sure that i don't make people sad.But make them happy. Wanting people happy, i have to be happy first. Well, thats difficult. lol. Oh ya, being random, but i saw sir kenneth, mdm iris, mdm yanteen, staff angela,mdm xue shen and lastly, sir alvin. lol. shocked but happy to see them.
My sis is so much weaker then me. LOL. Sometimes i can't control my temper over the phone and i start to sound angry on the phone. I can't control that but when i just wake up or something, my voice is like..
Anw, my sister is so BIG MOUTH. my god.. She's always like this. That's sze min. haiyo. People used to say my sister, like woah, she's so different from you, or she talkative or lousy, i just stare at the person and say, " ya, so?" Cause i know my sister better than that person. Like people saying my family, i just whatever or just keep quiet to let the person know that i'm not happy with that comment about my family even if thats the fact.
I used to voice out my comments, but in the end i got scolded or ignored. So now i keep everything within, but i got lectures on my behaviour, too quiet , no opinion. I know keeping quiet is still better. Want me to talk to people more? wait until that person talk to me first and don't give up halfway when talking to me. Btw, my eyes have been playing tricks on me, keep seeing things moving past me or something, and when i was at the gym just now, my neck suddenly ache so much.. but i have to continue.
I'm in love with BIG BANG's TONIGHT. SECRET GARDEN IS AWESOME. I know my blog is like empty, with no viewers.. But this is like my private place. My diary.