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Monday, May 31, 2010 | 10:13 PM | 0 hearts♥
Just had a tiff with my mum, over the use of laptop. What's wrong with her? I told her i won't use the com only after my MOTHER TONGUE olevel paper. NOT THE WHOLE O LEVEL! And here she is reprimanding me, saying that i am wasting time, not cherishing every single moment i have to study. I know that! I just freaking hell ended my MOTHER TONGUE paper and i need a fucking break! ( sorry for that word) I'm too furious.
Dragged me to don't know where right after my paper, spent the whole day there, and she don't even know how exhausted i am. Cried , because she broke my heart, cried because i realised she doesn't even understand me. and cried because what she said and what she did, is all unreasonable. She's not my MUM!!! She doesn't know how i cried to myself every single night,silent screaming. Because she's in my room and my sister and her sleep in the same room. I cry when i have stress, and now i can't even release my stress. The only way, is to use my smile to cover. OK, fine i dun smile much. At least the most i can do, is to only let out everything here.
Crying doesn't help much anymore. Because of you, MUM, you were once my pillar of support, but now, you're nothing in my heart, only the shell. WHATEVER! Thats me.
Now, only thing that makes me happy, is only looking at my idols. My brother not able to be with me, he's busy. My sister, c'mon she's like .....NO one.....Thats how lonely i feel at home. I'm happy with all my friends around me. Talking about KPOP. Friends, i love you guys.